How Sad I Am Today

I can't tell you how sad I am. There are not units to measure it by.

Today I found out my dear, dear friend was killed. I can't express how shocked and empty I feel.

The only thing I know to do is to reach for things to help me through. My faith, my husband, and family (in that order). I have wonderful and lovely memories but it's so hard to think about those now. I can't see past the fact that they are gone. Such an empty space that can never be filled.

Only time will help me .... I think.